OK, so beware! If you are a teacher or if you open your life up to share with others, you need to be prepared to live what you teach. I don't mean that in the sense that you must have everything you teach down pat, that you need to be an expert at it. What I mean is that as soon as you share something, you should be prepared to be tested in that area.
My last message to you was on forgiveness. Well, today my son and I had a knock-down, drag-out, no-holds-barred fight. Oh, it wasn't a nice little argument, it was a fight!!! If you know me and my sons at all, you know that is a VERY rare event. We love one another so much, and we all love peace and quiet enough to avoid conflict at all cost.
But this morning, we absolutely blew up at one another, each saying things we should NEVER have said, each saying things that we don't even mean just because our anger got the best of us. And it hurt so much. It hurt me, it hurt him, it hurt the rest of the family. The pain is overwhelming.
And now, I am facing the issue of forgiving (which I am sure he is also facing). Remember, I said it is not easy. Right now, I don't even want to talk. The feelings are still too raw, the hurt is still too painful, and I am not sure that we can talk without the whole thing blowing up again.
Like I said, it seems to be a given that as soon as you teach or share something, you are going to be tested in that area.
I ask for your prayers.
(Just being honest here.)
Love,
Ev
One thing have I desired and that will I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life to behold the beauty of the Lord and to enquire in His tablernacle. Psalm 27:4
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ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this. I can tell you that this happens to me EVERY time I teach, especially in a more formal setting, but even when it's just through my blog. EVERY time I end up crying on my poor husband's shoulder telling him I'm not fit to be teaching such a thing. I'm preparing to teach a study on Charity and its Fruits - and I've been having the most incredible time of testing in one of my relationships. I cried to Paul, "What do I think I'm doing - how can I teach about love when I'm struggling so hard." He said, "Laurie, you say that EVERY time you're going to teach a study!"
You are right. We will be tested, and should expect it. I'm so encouraged by your post, and know that God will give you grace to forgive as you have been forgiven.
Blessings to you.